Gave you all those smileys you want me to
Did it seems pathetic to you?
Last time I checked it was kind like grin of
No no no not like I’m totally pissed off
But I know my eyes couldn’t lie anymore
Hiding the pain behind, wishing if you could see
That there’s a story what’s inside a sight
Where’s the shoulder you promise me?
In the middle of the night I can’t help myself but crying
Where’s the warm hug you promise me?
If the suicide thoughts come haunting me
I’m being caught by the shadow of worst nightmare
Fasten me up on the deepest valley of hope
All I can scream is for a help
Yet no one hears me till my lung is bleeding
I’m so outta hope
Painting the smile on the saddest face
Is like trying to plant a flower in the sea
Arranging melodies make it in rhymes
Put the lyrics after the rainbow
I don’t care because you don’t know me anymore
Oh do you ever know me right before?
Darling but you’re lying
There’s no hug when I’m crying
Those promises are just nothing
If only you know how it’s killing
And these scars start to bleeding
Burning dreams where I think I’m loving
There is no shoulder you promise me
In the middle of the night I can’t help myself but dying
There is no warm hug you promise me
There is actually nothing
Right now I’m being caught by the shadow of worst nightmare
You shook your head as if you don’t care
(the lyrics was made on July 21, 2013 but the poem was written on May 25, 2014)
PS : You can see it clearly that the poem itself contains such a huge depressive message because I was.
PSPS : I know no one questioned why is my tumblr named my-worst-nightmare-is-you.tumblr.com but I just wanted to share it why, and it’s because it’s a freaking poem (used to be a lyrics) I’m going to share it here. So, yeah basically my tumblr URL is named based on the title of my poem, please tell me I’m not the only one who does it. And this poem is submitted to an international poetry for teens (I can’t remember the exact name of the contest) contest, eventhough I didn’t win, I’m still proud I made it (I mean, I submitted it :p).